Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Day 1 Agama

So I have just finished 1 whole day of my personal spiritual journey in Mexico. There is so much already that i have seen & felt. It's an overload of sensory information. It is beautiful here…just ridiculously gorgeous. The beach is amazing. You can't really compare it to Grace Bay Beach because it is like night & day. The sand is soft but a dark brown; the water practically unswimmable because the waves are so high and the water is constantly changing direction. I jumped in for 20 minutes and when I got out I noticed i had been carried at least 100ft from my starting position without even realizing it. This area is so mountainous it feels like you are in the jungle. Like someone built a small town in the jungle by the beach. I want to take pictures; right down thoughts; document everything. But I also just want to be here and have the experience. I hope I can strike a good balance.

And of course, there is the yoga. So far it is a really beautiful place. The teachers Yogita & Wolfgang (yup…isn't that amazing!) are great at communicating the principles & meaning of yoga and surprisingly down to earth for yogis. I got some pretty sound advice from a fellow student who has already been here for 2 weeks. She said, "half of what you hear will change your life…the other half take with a grain of salt". I've already had a freakish experience during practice. We were in savasana (end of class relaxation; lying face up; eyes closed). All of a sudden I felt a warmth on my belly and realized someone had their hands on my stomach and with every breath was moving their hands in a half circle, rubbing my belly. It felt warm and comforting and great. I thought, this is a nice touch; the teacher is going to go around and do this to everyone..cool. And then I heard the teacher's voice coming from the front of class. It startled me because I thought, if he didn't have his hands on me, then who did. Noone, I cracked my eyes open and noone was there. Now I am a massage therapist. I believe in feeling energies and have often felt energy; as warmth & tingling and movement; in my hands. But I have never had such a vivid energetic feeling like the one I just described. So maybe I am opening myself to the power of this place and my own unrealized potential or I am going crazy. Stay tuned. Well it's time to start day 2 and start class. Until next time.

Be well.

*update* aarrgh! trying to upload pictures but we don't have the strongest internet in these parts so...it will have to wait for another day...

Thursday, August 11, 2011

It takes 21 Days to break a habit...

They say it takes 21 days to break a habit and I have a lot of habits...specifically bad habits. I smoke too much; I eat too much; I worry too much; I stress too much; I work too much; I don't exercise enough; I don't sleep enough; the list could go on & on...so I am getting away for 21+ days with the intention of breaking some not so helpful habits and creating some new and better ones.
30 some odd days in a small town on the Pacific coast of Mexico; practicing Yoga, meditation, getting bodywork, taking siesta, and just plain old bumming around on the beach. Yes, that's what I need to get away from the hectic, stressful, routine of my life in the caribbean...wait...what?

Yes, we all have habits and habits become routine and routine has a habit of feeling like absolute reality and that narrowing of vision can make you feel stuck; at least it's made me feel stuck. I mean look at my life...I live on a gorgeous island in the Caribbean. I live steps (STEPS AWAY PEOPLE!) from one of the most beautiful beaches in the world. I have a job...a good job. I've got my health, friends who love me, ample food; shelter. Seriously, what do I need to get away from?

Myself; my routine. I've lost sight of the goodness and gotten stuck in the inevitable annoyances of life. I've got a short fuse. Everything seems so important. I'm defensive; resentful and can't get out of my own way enough to just let it all go...

I'm wishing a lot for this trip and I know it's not going to look exactly like my fantasy (30 days and I will be a completely zen, happy, enlightened being!) but maybe it will..who knows?

Let the adventure begin...